money matters

i hate my mom every time she insists on something she very well know is kinda off and "not applicable at this time."

pay this bill... and this... help with the card payment. bring the two kids to ate for pedia check up... the water bill is higher than the previous statement.. the power consumption.... ahhhh -

how i wish i have all the money to pay all those bullshits!

how can i enjoy my 6am breakfast if at the background is my mom ranting forever?

i feel so tired about those payment obligation.

i feel so helpless. i cant do anything because i cant even tell my employer to give me an increase since i am just less than a month old employee on his organization.

i sell jewelry but unluckily, my friend who owes me nearly P13,000 was a victim of a ruthless individual. that friend has no means of income other than getting jewelry from me and selling those sets for a higher cost. in short, she cant pay me as of now. but i have to pay my supplier.

my husband, though he seems to be really working extra hard to generate more income, is so apathetic. he seems not to care. what i give you, stretch that. if you cant pay for the other bills, then wait for the next pay day.

opps, i dont know. may be i am just misjudging my husband. he seems to care may be. i am just being not so appreciative of his efforts.

when will i ever not worry about money?

i know i have the choice of not bugging myself about this but i just cant help but react violently. i just pressure myself to hard may be. i just expect more understanding from my mother may be. i am expecting more support from my husband may be. i may be .. do not know totally what to write anymore.